i always knew there was a method to his madness.

"It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages."
— Friedrich Nietzschei 


 liking all these right now:

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/4FVtU0/www.goodreads.com/quotes%253Fcontainer%253Dbebo%2526page%253D2

it's been a [little] while

that's all i can say about anything right now.




oh, i guess i can say one more thing:
i went to savannah this past weekend. it was...uh...a weekend of firsts. yea. fun stuff.

on letting go

"Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own." ~ Robert Heinlein


i've felt this before. and though i still do, i have to learn that this may not do anyone any good, especially if the other person isn't happy with themselves in the first place. if this saying proves true, then you yourself end up unhappy, right? which i guess is still true in my case. still...it's the hardest thing when for so long you've felt as one (a single entity--and perhaps all the empathy played a big role), and now have to rip away to be one (alone) in order to re-learn how to take care of yourself. funny though...i haven't cared that it hasn't been "me" at the top of my list. i feel like that all the moves i make (whether related to this or not) i'm not even making them directly for me, but rather just doing it because i figure that's what i'm supposed to do next; like it came from some manual on how to live life; to "move forward," when in all reality i'm not too sure if it will really help my cause, whatever the hell that is.

yet, it's so stupid to try and pretend i don't care to see what happens on the other end of this or force myself to do so, because at the end of the day, i still do care...a lot.

i still worry...a lot.
and they still matter to me...

a shit ton.