no one really wins this time.

drained, [dreyn], verb 1. to withdraw or draw off (a liquid) gradually; remove slowly or by degrees, as by filtration 2. to withdraw a liquid gradually from; make empty or dry by drawing off liquid 3. to exhaust the resources of 4. to deprive of strength; tire

i don't know if it's everything that's been happening over the course of the past month and a half that has caught up to me, but i'm feeling a lack of everything good/needed to push through this day. i would give anything just to sleep the day away. normally i don't like wasting my day like that, but this monday i could care less.

feeling like this always causes me to have my worst moments of weakness, too. tack on some serious pondering of the past and what i wish would happen in the future (knowing that it very well may not happen anymore) and you've got a recipe for a full collapse. 

there are just some people i really, truly miss.

fall in love and hold nothing back

- copeland

i'm at the point where i feel like i've got nothing else left to lose, even with life in general, so why not just be blatantly honest, right?

the past month has been a whirlwind of having to be places and do shit left and right. i don't think i was mentally prepared for this past weekend of wedding makeup, outings, and house warmings...probably the reason why i slept past my alarm come monday morning and was dragging ass all day. i have a dear friend, best of the best really, that i connect with so well. we have these long conversations about life and share these moments of encouragement with one another. so naturally, i'll feel this empowerment for days at a time, but then BAM! it's like one day out of the blue my life hit a backtrack button. today definitely started out as one of those days.
 
but now...now i'm drinking my favorite tea and i'm determined to keep making moves.


"Procrastination is the grave where opportunities are buried." (something that definitely motivated me)