the most genuine of thoughts

are you FUCKING for real right now?

why the fuck do i bother? oh that's right. i don't. i just have absolutely no control over how i feel.

how the fuck does a person stop from exerting any emotion that has a single shred of care in it? i would really like to know, because right about now, it would be really nice not to give a shit. hell, it'd be nice to not feel a damn thing.

how does one become numb?