20110116

the tao of wu

it's my new book that i can't seem to put down. unfortunately it's taken me longer than i'd like to finish because [out of nowhere] i all of a sudden have a list of things to do and places to be...all for the better for my mental well being, i suppose. i still think i think way too much. heh.

when i don't have anything to occupy my time, i've been trying my best to stick to my latest resolution (not a new year's resolution, just a resolution) to read more. thankfully, because of this book, it's worked out great. at the end of every section, i'm completely mind blown by the simplest of thoughts. Lessons really. it's speaking to me on a whole different level. it's hitting me with truth from every direction, and this is one time where i can say being "hit" is refreshing and doesn't exactly hurt.

something that i knew very well before is finally starting to take on a whole new meaning just because of reading this book--it's the notion that everything will happen when it's meant to. i knew this before, honestly, i did. i just wasn't accepting it. whether it was out of hurt, or frustration, i just wasn't practicing true patience. but then finding this book happened. even that event itself was timed peculiarly. there i was at borders, standing in the same spot that i was five days prior, staring at the same shelf, on the phone chatting, looking for a completely different book. i half chuckled when i saw it, picked it up and continued to wander aimlessly between aisles, thumbing through the book, still chatting away. when i finally got off the phone, i took the time to read the first couple pages. i was immediately sucked in by the story telling, let alone the message that was to come. so what was so different at this very moment for me to find this book, rather than five days prior? there's a good chance that my "anger" that followed later in the day [when i was there the first time], shaped the way i was to look at things from that point on (literally and figuratively speaking). but who really knows. either way, i knew i wasn't leaving that store without it.

as i read, all throughout this book a particular person still comes to mind, more often than not. i want to share it with them, but i know there's a high chance a different type of sharing/conversation may follow. one that eventually needs to happen. one i need to have to relieve some of the weights on my shoulders. but i know i can't force it, so i'll remind myself that everything will happen when it's meant to.

i will have my time, my chance.

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